Everyday is a winding road

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I get a little bit closer to feeling fine

I feel like I made some progress this week, according to my metrics. But in terms of how I feel and how my body will change, it’s hitting me that it’s going to be a long road. Which is cool. Yet frustrating.

I wanna have more energy NOW. I wanna be able to chase my kid NOW. Especially since that’s becoming his favorite game. Ya’ know… nanny nanny boo boo, you can’t catch me.

But change is hard. I was just talking to a friend about habits. How something that used to be a treat, the cupcake once every few weeks, starts to become more and more regular.

For me this week…

it was pancakes. We ALWAYS go out to eat breakfast on the weekends. Why? I don’t know. Habit. But this Sunday the hubby suggested oatmeal, and I was all, NO.. It’s Sunday. Pancake day.

And guess what? After DEMANDING the fucking pancakes, I felt awful and went back to bed for an hour.
Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

But habits are hard to change. Along with all the other emotional BS we tie up in eating. Live and learn? I hope so. But it takes effort, and commitment. And a good memory so I can remember that pancakes=coma.

Week 2.

Out of 21 meals…

Plant-based- 9. And all full meals (no bananas with PB). This was mainly thanks to leftovers from my Vegan Valentine’s. But I also made a couple other things too during the week.

Meat-based-12

Eating Out- 8. A little less. Once again, we ate in more due to leftovers. But then that also kinda made me crazy at some point and I was driven to bad choices, like Smashburger.

Eating In- 13

Treats- I don’t even know. Which means I was clearly not snacking less. But. I do know that I was eating smaller amounts for snacks. Like, one square of chocolate instead of 3 cookies at a time.

Workouts- 3. And this is why summing up something with just a number sucks. I worked out 3 times- same as last week. But this week, the workouts were longer and harder. Instead of walking 20 minutes in my neighborhood, I walked about 2.5 miles round-trip to the daycare. Longer, better. But by the numbers, you’d never know.

Low body moment: Pancakes. I covered that, right? And also the burger at Smashburger. Yuck. It just didn’t sit well. Totally not worth it.

Accomplishment: Longer walks and actually eating real meals for every meal.

Goals for this week:

More variety at home. I went a little crazy where almost everything I cooked at home was plant-based. Which yay. But then I found myself still craving meat, and we’d eat out. So this week I plan to cook more at home, but cook more than barley and sweet potatoes.

Keep it up with the workouts. Kickboxing, trampolining, walking. I was able to push myself more this past week and I want to keep that momentum. Assuming I can fight the allergies and rain.

Treats. Actually keep track this week. And keep each treat small. Sometimes just a little bit is enough to satisfy the craving.

P.S. I’m enjoying my Monday check-in. I started off strong last week, but started to get lazy and slip back into old habits. Which ended in us eating out every single meal yesterday. Jeez. But sitting here, looking at my numbers and thinking of my goals, helps me refocus on what I want to be doing. And it’s not eating out every meal, every day. Now excuse me as I go meet a friend out for lunch.